Even if you’re taking meds for general anxiety disorder, it can still try to or, and sometimes succeed in hijacking your brain.
I’ve been on my anti-anxiety medication since December (I wrote about that here).
I have good days and bad days. Sometimes the bad days are pretty justified and I can give a good reason why they’re bad, while others I can only blame on my GAD.
There are some running themes, though. Here are the messed-up thoughts that pass through my head pretty often:
Scenario 1: The guy I’ve been seeing hasn’t texted or called in over 24 hours.
Anxiety: He’s done with me. What did I do wrong? You’re just too weird. Time to cry.
Reality: He’s busy. He works a lot, has his own place and a social life, and he also likes time to himself, like YOU do.
Scenario 2: I’m at work writing something important.
Anxiety: This is going to be sub-par. Ignore your better reasoning to fix this and that. Just hurry up and get it done because it’s going to suck anyway.
Reality: Take your time to do it the right way, and it’ll be fine. Put plenty of effort into it, and trust yourself.
Scenario 3: I get in the car to drive somewhere.
Anxiety: This is the day you’re going to die.
Reality: Your car is in good shape, and you’re a careful driver. Just mind your Ps and Qs and you’ll be fine.
Scenario 4: I have to talk to a stranger.
Anxiety: You’re so socially inept, you’re definitely going to make an ass out of yourself.
Reality: If you relax and trust yourself, you’ll do just fine. This is not a big deal.
What I’ve Learned About General Anxiety Disorder
Here’s something you might have heard before if you have any kind of mental illness:
“It’s all in your head.”
Yes. It is in your head. That’s where your brain is.
What they mean to say is, it’s not real. You’re just making it up or letting yourself get carried away.
You might already feel like what you’re feeling isn’t justified. You might already be thinking that you have no real reason to feel anxious, but it’s happening anyway. It’s not something you can control.
That’s the key here: you can’t control it. Just like how I can’t just tell myself that I don’t have asthma. I still have to take a control inhaler every day. It’s a chronic illness, only it’s in my lungs instead of my brain.
Sometimes though, it can actually be comforting when you stop and think: This isn’t really me.
There are a few things I’ve been doing that I noticed have been helping me lately…
“Mental health days.”
Soaking in a bath tub.
Taking deep breaths.
Watching funny videos on YouTube.
There are a lot more, but those are my main ones.
I’m talking about my own experiences with General Anxiety Disorder because you can feel alone and weird at times. It’s nice to know that you’re not alone or weird at all.